Music is such a big part of my life
Music has been such a big part of my life since I was young and recently I have found a song that sticks very true to me. I listened to it on repeat for hours as it hits deeply with me. Now first I want to explain my background on music and then come back to this particular song
Firstly when I started listening to my own music I started with 3 cds and a disk player. I had an old ACDC track list, The shady LP, and 50 cents get rich or die tryin album. So for a 9 year old with these 3 CDs (the Eminem and 50 cds were bought from friends and my parents didn’t know I had them).
Now iv always been into my violent music. I grew up in a neighbourhood where drugs and violence was common. At my elementary school I seen nearly every drug, knives, and even a gun so iv always been very into rap as it was the popular music at my school also because of the fact raps often would describe the similar struggle I would go through so even though I didn’t realize at the time I related very closely with these songs.
As I got older I began to understand why I liked these songs, not because I wanted to sell drugs or be a gangbanger, its because the struggle and the hustle related to me. I had and still have to hustle and grind every day as I hope to get big things. Much like these rappers I came from a shitty background and people looked down on me and told me id be nothing but I know if I work hard enough I will be able to be rich and powerful much like the rappers I admired.
Anyways, the song I referenced is G Eazy’s new song “Me, Myself, and I”. This song speaks a lot to me as it is insanely close to how my daily life is currently.
The beginning lyric “its just me myself and I, solo ride until I die, cause I got me for life. I don’t need a hand to hold, even when the night is cold. I got that fire in my soul” that first verse encompasses soo much about me.
Since I started The BeastPack iv had doubters that are close to me, supportive to my face but full of doubts and ill will behind my back. So this journey the last year has been all by myself, I haven’t had anyone to help me. Yes iv had great supporters but no one has come and done anything for me. Iv learned how to set up a website, order apparel, make money, do all my own research into personal training, and survive all on my own.
Now if we go into G Eazy’s first verse he says “get what I want when I want cause this hunger is driving me, ya”. I love this line as this is exactly what I want my life to be. To be able to get what I want when I want how I want. I don’t like bosses, I don’t like authority I want enough money and power that I can do what needs to be done with no questions asked, no one telling me no except myself. Now I could talk about this entire verse but im gunna move on and say the entire end of the first verse relates to me and if you listen it will be very obvious why.
Now in his second verse I don’t agree with the “I don’t like talking to strangers” as I love to but the next bit “so get the fuck off me im anxious” I agree as I definitely have pressures to succeed and that causes me a fuck ton of anxiety and so often I want to just say get the fuck off me im anxious and need a break.
Anways to the rest of the verse he says “im trying to be cool but I may just got ape shit and say fuck yall to all of yall faces” this is something insanely dear to me. As soo many people I would love to just say fuck you but many people support my living in some manner (maybe a boss, a co-worker, or someone that has influence that could make my life harder than need be) and I gotta stay cool or I could burn these bridges I need to keep alive but shit its hard and somedays its like you don’t know me, the shit I go through, all you know is the version of myself I ALLOW YOU TO SEE. You don’t know what I do behind the scenes and you probably never will as you don’t care.
Now into the last verse. We see how my thought patterns go in life. I always start positive, im a positive guy and I know I will succeed but sometimes with stress comes frustration that things maybe aren’t moving as fast as you want or as smoothly and that’s the 2nd verse but in the 3rd we come back to what matters and that’s the positivity. I like to say there is no shame in having anger at people though you will see me preach to let things go you must experience a little bit of anger to truly feel the release so I believe anger and a need for proving or revenge is needed but it needs to be short and cut off that’s why in the third verse we go to the line “all my life iv been told to wait but im a get it now yeah its no debate” coming full circle. As iv dropped the anger or frustration with the failures and gone back to my true faith and knowledge that I will make my dreams come true.
So with this song you get to learn more about me. I believe in positivity as from experience iv learned even blind stupid positivity will do vastly better than calculating negativity but that negativity is needed to make the positivity to work. If I want to make an analogy it could be say having every day be a sunny day except make 1 day a week a rainy day. Now those sunny days seem even better because without that rainy day they would just be average and not special. This also makes the rainy days special, because though negative it does have positives followed along.
So though this only may make sense to myself but I hope this might provide some thinking context for you. Maybe take my ways of thinking and apply them to your own life because who knows maybe a different context of thinking is just what you need to get over that next mountain. None the less thank you for reading and take care!
- Zack Ramsey